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Thursday, October 31, 2013

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Well, What do you think life is ?. It's not bed of roses of course, isn't it. We all want to have a happy life. when people you know, who are close to your heart are with you you spent lot of time with them and all these things rather moments make your life happy and silky. Wait a moment ... !! what if someone close to your heart leave you forever promising never to come back. How would you feel for a moment, may be you will freeze at that moment, your hands will stop moving, your mind will stop moving, your heart beat will become faster and tears starts to flow from your eyes because a color of your has fade away and you can't buy it from anywhere at any cost. /no
                                                     There is a time in everyone's life, when it offers us a option or a way to recover ourselves from shocks. Sometimes we miss it and sometimes just because of some cheap people, we forced to leave that too.Same happened with me. What happened, how did it happened, where did it happened. Here is a short description i would like to share with you all.

Long ago my little sister died leaving me forever. She was very sweet and i often miss her every day and especially whenever i woke up in morning. because she used to woke me up sometimes by throwing water on me!!.She was really my heart's warmth, happiness. i always had a dream to see her getting married as every brother has. but you know God's Will is Revealed in God's World, you never know what god has planned for you.I never thought that she would say good bye to me forever at such a little age. She was only 8 when she passed away. I still remember those last few moments, when i look into those moments i always broke down.  :'( .You know there can be no better friend then a sister. 

Now here we go, something new :)) .Sometime before In my collage i met a girl who resembled alot to my sister. I thought may be god has given me another chance to meet my sister. Initially i was bit resistant to talk with her, because she was elder than me and moreover i didn't knew her.As i saw her everyday So After sometime my childhood memories started to come in front of my eyes and this is from where i got inspired :) . And that's was the turning point of our relationship :).One day i took the initiative =))  and started talking to her. Well for sometimes i kept it zipped. i didn't told her why i talk to her. but sooner or later i have to disclose that, why ?. Answer is simple my feelings, i never let them die. so day by day we became closer and closer. /blush
                                                                              While talking to her my heart immediately noticed that the way she talks is almost same as my of sister.I was very happy :)). I determined not to loose my sister again. Then one day i told her everything about my sister and also about my feeling for her. She was very happy to hear that.And said "Oh so sweet baby.. y-) Ur most welcome" haha we laugh alot at that time. Later i came to know that she don't have real brother. That was another factor that Bond of our relationship was getting stronger and stronger.I gave her chocolates everyday. My life was going very nicely.We used to sit together for many hours and talk about anything and just laugh.the most sweet and cherished moment that i had with her is that i often used to pull his cheeks hahaha , and then she react like this "naiiii" by keeping her both hands on his face so that she can prevent me from pulling her cheeks. Little cute teddy bears was her favorites and i used to brought a couple for her every week. Also she hate eating sweets but whenever i gave her chocolates she never denied it and eat it. Cherry-Chocolates was her favorite ones.Oh wait wait please. i forgot to tell one this girl is a teacher. All Good Going, Suddenly :( 

Some people made vulgar joke About our relationship and i came to know. After i was really upset and she noticed it.She asked me what happened, i never wanted to tell her but she said that "i won't talk to you if you can't tell me". Then i explained everything, After that she just told me that don't fight with anyone,and was very angry. she didn't talk to me for many days.It took many-many days when things become normal .... I thanked to god ..!!then it was her birthday in FEB. I brought many lovely presents for her.We were so close to each other that when every we meet we laugh share moments and many more things. Now this time something serious and worst happened. which i never expected. of course you never know what's going to be happen in next second, isn't it. So does me, i was unaware of the tornado that was coming very quickly towards my life to hit it fiercely.

Some teacher started to taunt means (commenting about us). it started and kept on going. Everyone was jealous about our relationship. I came to know about some teachers who spoke that.I approached someone to complaint about them. Who the hell they are to talk about anyone else like that. Now see a teacher doing all these stupid thing, what do you say. Well i think that if he/she doing all this crap then he/she might not have sense respecting other because you have to give respect to earn it in-return. Even if it's a student or someone else you have to respect everyone. I mean it's so ridiculous, if a teacher can do all these thing then how can you expect student to behave in a manner or how can you expect good things from them.Secondly some teacher feel jealous about the fact that some students like me, interact with this and that teacher constantly but they never came to us[teachers commenting about us feels this].Seriously i don't know what to write it's was too ridiculous, silly. But in my life i never disrespected anyone. See what i want to tell Ya all is "when you are having a good time out there, your life is happy, cheerful on the other hand some may be jealous of it, may be they are planing to destroy your life's happiness because they can see someone living happy." So watch Out. 

Where was i :-? . Um, I got it, It's our life and we have all rights to do what ever we like. After many days she came to know about this and, she became very upset because she got hurt. I did so because i couldn't bear that because she is my sister and it's my duty to protect her as i truly love her. As time passed she talk very little, and after some days she almost quit talking with me. every day whenever i saw her she just passed a smile and from a distance but never stops to talk with me. it was very difficult time for me. She never replied to my text and calls.I did everything for her that a brother does. I gave her impotence, time, respect, Love everything.But she was not with me in difficult time. My best-friend (Rahul) supported me during this time.Thanks to HIM. 

One day i had fight with her but it was unintentional :(. i asked her why don't you talk just because of these crap and something very cheap happened on that day. she spoke something that she shouldn't have. At that time i came to Know that yes for her i was still a boy not a brother :'(.  she was just concerned about her reputation not about me, my feelings. Rather i maid few mistakes because i was thinking about my sister not about a girl to whom i met few months ago. It was my sister to whom i see in her :( , to whom i didn't want to loose. the fear of loosing her force me to such a situation. 

Even then i didn't said anything because i just don't wanted to loose her!!. Because i still thought of being silent because she was elder and i committed few mistakes too. That day was last day of our conversations.Before this in afternoon i had a heated argue with her just because of some crap people around me. but things went out of control and there was no hope of well for me as well. In evening i received a text from her that "app aj ke badh mujhe text ya call mat karna" means don't call or text me ever.

That almost killed my heart.Drops of tears started to came out of my eyes.I didn't eat anything for 3 days, I fight because i want our relationship to be more stronger then ever, But things kept on getting worst and worst. Even she said to me on last day that "what you DID for me". I gave her importance more than my real sister and she just didn't even thought for a second before speaking this. I just don't know i am not able to erase her from my memory, well my heart doesn't want to do that. I miss her so much every day every moment.How Bad it's that just because of other peoples we suffered alot. Most irritating is that i can't do anything.

I still love you and you have same place in my heart as before,and will be there forever.Today is my birthday[ I wrote this on 19 April but i didn't have any blog that time. i have made this blog few weeks before so i'm posting it as day of 19th April ] so today refers to 19th April  and she even didn't wished me .How can you do that. :(

Even then whatever happens  i never disrespect you ever and i won't do it. I still miss Ya you brought my childhood memories back, You are such a precious part of my life, I have learned alot from you but one thing that i want to say is i miss you so much.  

Here is a poem for her!! /blush

A sister is someone who loves you from the heart,
No matter how much you argue you cannot be drawn apart. 
She is a joy that cannot be taken away, 
Once she enters your life, she is there to stay. 

A friend who helps you through difficult times, 
Her comforting words are worth much more than dimes. 
A partner who fills your life with laughs and smile, 
These memories last for miles and miles. 

When she is by your side, the world is filled with life, 
When she is not around, your days are full of strife. 
A sister is a blessing, who fills your heart with love, 
She flies with you in life with the beauty of a dove. 

A companion to whom you can express your feelings, 
She doesn't let you get bored at family dealings. 
Whether you are having your ups or downs, 
She always helps you with a smile and never frowns. 

With a sister you cannot have a grudge, 
She is as sweet as chocolate and as smooth as fudge. 
Having a sister is not just a trend, 
It is knowing you can always turn to her, your best friend. 

" Another thing is Anybody can pilot the ship when sea is calm but when it's not it's very hard to pilot the ship. i hope you all got my point. Yes, Oh Ya.So never give Up against such Crap. Never hide your feelings, Do your best. Leave rest on life. May be a hidden surprise or a hidden Shock.Whatever it is take it with you, i mean to say experience it and learn the way of life how it travel. 
And never forgot to smile it doesn't cost anything. /wahaha



  1. I wish could be have brother like Ya ... :'( so sorry for Ya ..

    1. haha ... Don't worry ... I got Ya ... ;)

  2. Really Bro, some people are so shity .... Tell me who they are ... i will smash their faces :-h d-) s-) y-) ....

    1. i will for sure ... :) :)) d( s-) haha